“Hardwired to misbehave”

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“Michael Potegal, Ph.D., a pediatric neuropsychologist at the University of Minnesota, in Minneapolis, has spent the latest part of his professional career studying tantrums and how and why young children have such brutally emotional explosions.

“And what has he learned in that time? That their outbursts are as normal a biological response to anger and frustration as a yawn is to fatigue. So normal, in fact, that you can make a science out of the progression of a tantrum and predict one down to the second.

“Kids from about 18 months to 4 years are simply hardwired to misbehave, he says. And that means “nurture” (i.e., you) isn’t always to blame.”

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(Why couldnt someone have told me this earlier??! And why is it still so hard to not assume responsibility for it, in some fashion??)

(Credit of paragraph quoted to: http://www.parenting.com/article/toddler-temper-tantrums)

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Motherhood — a spiritual immersion


I know a lot of you who read the title of this post will probably raise your eyebrows in disbelief and irritation and a lot of you will snigger and laugh. “What?!” You will say. “Is this woman completely bonkers?! Is she saying her experience of parenting has been/is so bloody sublime that it actually resembles something spiritual??”

Well, to be perfectly honest and upfront — of course not — I mean — of course it isn’t in the way it plays out — from moment to moment — day to day — month to month — year to year — but when I think back on it, there is one part of the absolutely spectacular and speech defying experience that is so close to being a spiritual thing.

And that is the way in which some of us are able to morph, thoughtlessly, effortlessly, into the sorts of beings our children need at the time.

When my little one came and for the months that followed until she was about one year old I was totally, completely present — to her and for her if you know what I mean.

I tried at all times very hard to fathom what each of her little utterances meant — especially those of discomfort, boredom, sorrow or despair. I was able, despite being quite a slow moving sort of person, to magically transport myself to where she was, the moment I knew she needed me or needed comfort or familiarity or closeness or solace.

I would sleep in completely bizarre and contorted positions next to her in the night in the hope that she was able to create the space she wanted, the way she wanted it. It didn’t do my back any good, nor did it contribute much to my feeling rested but it soothed me immensely to know that she knew there was one person in her world who was terribly concerned about what she wanted and the way she wanted it.

Once she turned one and began to master her first few attempts at walking, and began to give out signs to me and everyone else around that she needed some space to stretch out and fall and get up and be a separate person I began tweaking my ways so that I was a call away but not necessarily present in her field of vision. She didn’t always approve but I tried to respond to her own budding independence with respect and acknowledgement and at times with a gentle nudge away from me when she returned to touch base and reassure herself that I wasn’t entirely out of reach.

By the time she turned two, she was speaking in one languge fluently and understood at least another two, quite well. That gave her additional confidence to build and sustain several new, close and loving relationships with people inside and outside the family. Which in turn gave her a comparative sense of how differently people related to her — most of course carefully sidestepping the horribly exhausting work of rule setting  — and that is when she began to challenge me.

The onset of the “terrible twos” was premature — it came much before I knew much about it — and once it came, my god how it settled deep into the fabric of our lives!

Nearly everything, nearly all the time, was and still is, potential ground for a duel. And although a lot of people I have a great respect for told me often to leave things be and let things lie, I couldn’t.

I had seen how a dear friend had ‘lost’ the battle with her strong-willed and determined first born and I remembered reading at the time that such children almost need the parent to prove they are parents by staying their ground in relation to ‘what is alright to do and be’ — or risk losing their children’s respect, for life.

I can’t say I haven’t wept silently and secretly on many an occasion but I have to say I have won my spirited toddler’s respect. She does grudgingly accept, most of the time, that I am the parent and she the child. For now.

Once she is all grown up and ‘sorted out’, as I am sure she will be, I will more than happily throw away the unmoving and uncompromising role of rule setting and embrace rule-less-ness and even anarchy in our equation. But until then, I am going to continue giving her all the resistance and dogged consistency she needs to figure out the world and her blossoming place in it.

Nothing in my life before her coming had ever prepared me for any of this — and nor am I saying any of it is ever easy for very long. But I have to say I’m surprised by how much we are able to mirror our children in order to either reassure them or challenge them as the case may be.

Just the other day, when I went to drop her off at playschool, she actually turned at the gates, called out to me and waved me off with a wonderful smile! (And this after our having had a prolonged discussion about why she couldn’t wear the soiled dress she had had on for the last 28 hours.) And I thought thank god she is happy, confident and secure. And that none of our seemingly constant sparring has had any dent on our closeness.

Although her sense of safety about being by herself with a bunch of other children and a really remarkable set of sensitive, caring and yet ‘free-of-fawning-over-children’ staff is the result of hard work my mum did, I do feel terribly satisfied that this little girl has already been able to find her equanimity amongst peers without once pushing or shoving anyone even when she gets pushed herself. And that she ventures into the outside world, even if for a short duration, confidently and happily and without once whimpering or howling — knowing that we are here to ferry her to and fro and welcome her back into our fold once she has had her heart’s fill of play and a little safe time away from her nest and home.